10 – In The Heat Of The Cubicle

As I have been posting my older parts of my story, it’s taking a while to build up the courage to repost this one. If you are reading this for the first time and you or someone you know have gone through similar. Please, I encourage to not just keep it to yourself, you must report and seek help. If I did back then, I may not have gone down the harsh drug path and found myself sooner.

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Ever had a time when everything was going so well, everyone is happy and plans were thought to be going along quite nicely? Then all of a sudden BAM, everything becomes red with fury and hatred that you’re not sure what you are going to do or even meant to do? The only result is to cover it more by self-medicating, but with more than you have already been using.

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23 – Tricked Happiness

The feeling that it brought. I was not only taking it like this again, it was the first real-time I took it for a different reason. It felt amazing to be relaxed and in a safe place,  knowing that I wasn’t just doing it to be awake and aware of my surroundings.

It’s funny how even though you think and feel you’re in a better place. It can only take one thought or feeling you have about someone to bring that all to a halt. You will never realise at first. However, eventually you will. 

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22 – New Best Mates Shine Through It All

Best friends can be found in the weirdest times of your life. They help shine through no matter what.

My life had been like a yo yo. Up and down, round and round. When you are in those good times, make sure you have a blast. However having too much of a blast may make you blind to what is around the corner. Through it all you somehow make friends for life. I am excited to introduce you finally. 

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8 – Footprints

8 – Footprints. The eighth part of my Personal Story. Give it a read If you missed it. The 22nd Part will be published tomorrow.

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I needed to write about two of my biggest influences that still resonate within me today. If I could be half the role models these two were I would be very grateful that they inspired me to become that role model. Some people leave footprints in your life by walking all over you. Some leave footprints walking beside you…

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Give A Thought This Christmas

Felt like I should share this again.. and to go  along side with the post, any money raised between now and 4th Jan through Crammed Mind Charity, Will be donated to underprivileged kids at Street Link. To donate go to the Crammedmind Mind Facebook page and press the donate button. Let’s feed some kids and help them feel safe.

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Ever stopped to think about the people who can not celebrate Christmas, due to unfortunate circumstances?

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7 – You’re Hired

Another oldie. You’re Hired, is when I got my first job and feeling rage for the first time because of a bully boss.

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Being fourteen seems so long ago. However, somehow you remember everything like it was yesterday. I remember everything from five, ten, fifteen and even thirty-two years ago. However, God help me if could remember what I had for dinner two nights ago, or where my keys are now, without actually having to think about it.

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21 – The Lonely Mind That Deceives

With the feeling of aloneness starting to become the only friend you have, however it turns out to become your worst enemy.

If you have been reading my personal story from the start, you would have read that I have been diagnosed with Depression and Anxiety. While on the journey of telling everyone my life, a lot of it no one knows. I can not believe my mind convinced me to think I was happy. The mind that thinks alcohol and drugs is what makes you happy is a damaged mind. No matter how much you hide behind numbing yourself, your problems will always be there. I wish for people to reach out for help, and always know, you are not alone. Many things can alter your identity. You are the only one the can alter it the right way by talking about what you have and/or are going through.

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6 – Brother Yay!! Step Dad Nay!! pt2

Brother Yay Step Dad Nay both part 1 and 2 are the most read posts from my personal story. I reposted part 1 not long ago so here is part 2 again. Some new posts are coming soon.

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There will always be something that will make a half brother become more than a brother from another father..

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2 – Being Gay In The Port.

One of my earlier posts. It is definitely one part of the reason starting the Crammed Mind Non Profit charity organisation for youth dealing with Identity Crisis.

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I have to remind people, that things may not make sense, again imagine what’s in my head. Don’t be afraid to ask questions if needing clarification….. Also feel free to leave comments.

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20 – One Thing After Another

Automatically I knew once leaving this house I would not be coming back. James did not hesitate, he was there within 20 minutes.

They always say everything comes in threes. There seems to be a truth to that in many ways. No matter how hard you feel you’re trying to live a ‘normal’ life, something is always there to tell you otherwise. 

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