I feel its fair to say that since resigning from my job at Hungry Jacks, I had been some kind of gypsy. All while I never realised how dependant I had been my whole life. Dependent on people and most of all weed and alcohol. It is still not until many years later I woke up and start becoming more so independent.
It is safe to admit that we all do things that maybe you should think twice about. Sometimes it works out even with fear flowing through your whole body. But what if we didn’t take a risk here or there? How would you say your life has turned out?
It’s really funny how we can perceive love. Some of us would do almost anything to feel the true connection. Some of us settle for what we believe is making us happy, when deep down we know it is completely superficial.
Leaving a town that had only some good memories is not hard. The unknowing of what it will be like, or if you you will finally make it away somewhere else is daunting but at the same time exciting. New people, new experiences, and only a little guilt for leaving behind the ones that you love.
When people come to you for advise, you do your best. We tend to always advise what would be best if it was us in that situation, without really thinking about their own situation. It’s ok to have an opinion especially when been asked for it. Some people dismiss what you say. However, we need to keep in mind that sometimes these opinions are heard and then acted on. Then it happens; BANG! You suddenly find out it may not have been the best advise you gave.
When you tell people your ok with something and just go with the flow, even though you know it doesn’t feel right and you don’t have the balls or the heart to do anything otherwise. As soon as you allow people to think your ok with things, those people have the total right to not even think twice. If you choose to act ok with things and go with the flow, then the shitty feelings you have is nobodies fault but your own.
Ever found something so awkward but yet so beautiful. Something that is unexpected and no matter what for the rest of your life you laugh, cry, and feel privileged to have been apart of this one persons life?
Remember the dream you had about rainbows in the sky while flying through them? All through this dream you feel happier than you have ever felt in your life. You could see for miles, and even though that dream felt like it was forever in was only 5 minutes. Well picture that, however with me it wasn’t a dream..
Ever had a time when everything was going so well, everyone is happy and plans were thought to be going along quite nicely? Then all of a sudden BAM, everything becomes red with fury and hatred that you’re not sure what you are going to do or even meant to do? The only result is to cover it more by self-medicating, but with more than you have already been using.