One thing you should probably know before reading this part, is that, being on drugs is like the title of the first post. Its like being “All Over The Place”. You will notice it; don’t you worry. If you have never read any of my personal story yet, it may be easier if you start from the start. Just press the link in this paragraph. For those who have, then I hope you understand the two stories in one.
It’s funny how even though you think and feel you’re in a better place. It can only take one thought or feeling you have about someone to bring that all to a halt. You will never realise at first. However, eventually you will.
My life had been like a yo yo. Up and down, round and round. When you are in those good times, make sure you have a blast. However having too much of a blast may make you blind to what is around the corner. Through it all you somehow make friends for life. I am excited to introduce you finally.
Looking back on the year just gone can be quite daunting. However, we all have to measure the amount of growth as a human we have and are becoming. Changes will happen whether we like it or not, so it is most important for us to adapt and learn from those changes, otherwise we may be left behind.
One year ago today, I was doing the same thing. Not sleeping and writing a post with my thoughts. This time I know why. It is amazing when you read something and it all confirms that you are a stronger person then before. You are exceeding more than before. Yes, the alarm is going to go off in 47 mins, however this time I blame the book….
If you have been reading my personal story from the start, you would have read that I have been diagnosed with Depression and Anxiety. While on the journey of telling everyone my life, a lot of it no one knows. I can not believe my mind convinced me to think I was happy. The mind that thinks alcohol and drugs is what makes you happy is a damaged mind. No matter how much you hide behind numbing yourself, your problems will always be there. I wish for people to reach out for help, and always know, you are not alone. Many things can alter your identity. You are the only one the can alter it the right way by talking about what you have and/or are going through.
If I was to ask you to name three things that make up apart of your identity, could you?
They always say everything comes in threes. There seems to be a truth to that in many ways. No matter how hard you feel you’re trying to live a ‘normal’ life, something is always there to tell you otherwise.
It was the part in my Personal Story post titled 12 – Love, Loss, Guilt. pt 1: Heaven Sent that I knew that one day I want to be able to help teenagers. Twenty odd years later it is now starting to become reality. With still along way to go, my vision has just started. I can not be more excited to share with you all.