24 – Exposing It While Trying Not To

I instantly stopped and walked in and went and shut myself in my room. “I can’t believe I am the one who has exposed this to Crystals kid”.

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23 – Tricked Happiness

The feeling that it brought. I was not only taking it like this again, it was the first real-time I took it for a different reason. It felt amazing to be relaxed and in a safe place,  knowing that I wasn’t just doing it to be awake and aware of my surroundings.

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20 – One Thing After Another

Automatically I knew once leaving this house I would not be coming back. James did not hesitate, he was there within 20 minutes.

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18 – Hoping This Move Was The Right Move.

If you have been reading my personal story starting from 1 – All Over The Place, you would know how much I wanted to be in Adelaide. I felt that I was home and ready to start the next chapter…

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17 – Dark Scary Road To Mr M

All while I was using the Internet to temporarily fill a gap in my life by meeting random guys, there was another guy I was chatting to. For specific reasons we will call him Mr M.

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16 – Love That Lasts Before Dawn

Having the use of the Internet I became familiar in a couple of websites for gay men. One was Gaydar and the other Manhunt. These websites were what they called gay “dating” sites.

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15 – New People, Places and Experiences

Getting desperate for work, applying for everything online, I was starting to not leave the house, I would always be stoned, or drunk, or both. Ben was paying our way, which he seemed to not mind at the time.

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14 – Love, Loss, Guilt pt3. Dark Matter

I couldn’t forgive myself, his life was completely turned upside down. This goofy, awkward, fun, loving and caring man, had become lifeless, shattered, less coherent.

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